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They say in a room filled with a million people…any old million from all over the world….that you’ve never met….they will know you better then you know yourself. At first glance this might seem like an odd thing to open a blog with but take some time and just ponder this very thought. Deluding yourself is a very simple task. Most people do it everyday without even realizing it. Perhaps ignorance is bliss and this delusion that alot people are living is really like an all expesnes paid trip to self esteem (or is oddly like the matrix *cue scary music*), however i think a fair amount of introspectivity is a good thing. It allows you to reflect back on yourself and see how you’ve grown or degraded from who you were. The really interesting thing about this excercise is that its different everytime you do it. You can always look back on an embarrassing moment and feel…well embarrassed by it, however you can also look back at yourself in highschool, elementary, kindergarden and just see how much you’ve grown.
I remember being in Grade 5 and sitting in class as the teacher lectured thinking “What will I be like in 10 years”. A couple weeks ago it dawned on me that it is now ten years later, an immense amount of time to me back then and the progress that I feel I have made is lightyears. It seems like an interesting anomally, the amount of progress one can make over time.
I urge everyone that reads this (so basically just you Kat) to sit down and think about where you were 10 years ago and work yourself up to where you are now. Its almost like tearing down a lego castle and putting the bricks back exactly where you pulled them from. Its a very comforting feeling to know that you are perhaps growing as a person, maturing and gaining experiences. Do you ever have those experience when you see a relative that you might not see very often or a familly friend and they say “Look how tall you are!”, but you don’t really understand what their talking about. It is this objective view that you should take with your life, just once in a while. While you might feel like you have so much more left in your life to do and experience, take solstice in that knowledge that you have already achieved so much.
Coda: I’ve never been much of a sucker for the russian modernists but take the time and listen to the first movement of Shosty 10. It is an amazing piece but its the intro that always get me with the string beginning to pound out this one rhythmic figure over and over again. It just great stuff! After that, in keeping with the spirit of the Russian Modernists, throw in a bit of Peter and the Wolf (I actually got really upset when I first listened that the duck had been eaten! )
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